Thank You Lord for Your mercy – I have completed the first term of the full-time training in London. It is really the Lord’s sovereignty that I could give myself to Him to be trained together with those who love Him in this wonderful environment.
I have to say that my first term has been so enjoyable and, of course, there also have been many dealings with the Lord to break my outer man. I guess one of my topmost enlightenments was to be exposed in my character. Only by the divine shining from the Lord would we really know who we are (John 3:21). It is never by the self adjustment or being told by others’ self-made light, but it is by the shining from God as light that we see what we really are. I realized that our disposition and national character could create big hindrances for the work of the Lord. In our going on with the Lord, I realize more and more that our usefulness to the Lord is intimately related to our character. Particularly in the matter of coordination, many times I was exposed to see that I acted according to my inborn nature. The Lord will never use our natural ability and capability because they go against the principle of the Body. I see that the stronger our disposition is, the less our function is manifested. For us to be useful to the Lord, we first need to overthrow our disposition in prayer and give Him our full cooperation to perfect and train us with a proper character.
Having completed the first term, I realized that I do not even know how to love people. Only the divine love could be approved by the fire and is everlasting unto eternity (1 Cor. 3:10-15). If we do not take heed to the mingled spirit, it is so easy to create intimate relationships according to our natural choice, which is typified by the honey in the Old Testament. And this would eventually become leaven. I start to see more and more that the key to our Christian life and the kernel of God’s economy is the mingled spirit (Eph. 3:5). The moment we are not in our mingled spirit, we are one with Satan in our flesh (Rom. 8:6; Gal. 5:16, 25; 6:8). May we be exercised to pay attention and remain in our mingled spirit.
I also appreciated that the training provides you many opportunities to spend time with the Lord, just to be infused with Him and to appreciate Him – the very person of the Lord Jesus – alone. We all love the Lord, and almost every time our first response in loving the Lord is to offer Him something, to work for Him. Actually, many times the Lord desires that we would come to Him, as much as we desire to seek Him the very person (Hymn #1048). The more I spend time with the Lord, the more I realize that we would never graduate from confession – we need to keep a pure and clean conscience (2 Cor. 4:12; 1 Tim. 1:5, 19) and consecration – we are of God (1 Cor. 6:19-20). This is the key for me to start a fresh day with the Lord in the morning as daily basis. Then it would be easier to continue the rest of the day. [guest post: the second part of YeeYee’s testimony on Bringing Christ to my friends]